So I have done all my paperwork. Took my test, passed, done all I can to ensure that PA has all my papers from school, from the boards, from me. NY is the last link. I am waiting. Ever impatient, for my PA license to show up. And presumably, they are waiting for NY. I had to request a letter of good standing and did so. Albany had it by Tuesday at 1030 am. I know because I overnighted and thats how I am. Nothing left to be done.
And while I am terribly impatient to start treating, I am fearful of it. Having people's health and well being in my hands is a big responsibility. Its also a big joy and a vote of confidence that together we can get these people back to their homes. But it is a little scary to take care of people and hope that I am able to help. Despite having graduated, completed 3 clinicals, and been hired, I still worry I'm not enough.
I know where that fear comes from. And I'm learning to battle that down and know I am enough and I can help and so on and so forth. But it is a responsibility I worry over.
Less than I have before, but still...